They Say, Leave Things on a Good Note..

But I'm running out of grace.

How do you expect me to walk out with a smile on my face after you tell me, I don’t have a job anymore? Don’t get me wrong, I’m relieved. This job was rewarding on many days, but on most days, it was just exhausting. I felt myself slowly wither away - my dreams and nightmares were all hijacked by ongoing projects. That’s not sustainable, and I shouldn’t have sustained it as long as I did but, I have responsibilities + bills to pay - so I did sustain it, for ten long months.

However - and this is a big however - to have your job taken away from you creates resentment. There’s a reason I’m not making this a post on LinkedIn, and that reason is, recruiters, managers, and everyone in between will tell you to leave things on a good note.

For my rant-readers, I’m here to report that I am fresh out of grace.

I learned a bunch of things that I may not have had the opportunity to learn at a big organization. I also brought a ton of business to the brand - I pulled all my weight, every day. Yet, I got laid off.

And though I am leaving with my grace completely exhausted, I also earned lifelong relationships. My manager will always be a friend I can call on. My colleagues on other teams, the women I worked with - on the big stuff and the little stuff - for ten hours a day, every day, will be my work wives forever.

I’m not trying to write well or appease anyone today, so this post truly is a rant. I am angry that I gave so much of myself to this job to no avail, sad that I lost my livelihood, but relieved that I have the opportunity to be a human being again. I get to learn pottery for the next few weeks, work on Season 2 of my podcast, reconnect with my professional community, and dash back home to my newborn nephew as soon as I land an offer.

Let this serve as your reminder: no job is worth your peace!

I’m hopeful about what lies ahead, to chase my dream job and then some! I’m fresh out of grace, but just got my joy back.

Rest assured, I’ll be back here with updates (and potential rants). BRB!